waiting

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This is a picture of me in the waiting room of my OBGYN. I was waiting to be called back to the clinic to find out whether or not the hormones that I was taking was working. Honestly, I was feeling super discouraged and wanting to throw in the towel. The hormones were affecting my day to day functions. I was experiencing some high anxiety in crowds of people and it was extremely uncomfortable. I thrive on being in control, although God has repeatedly challenged that. My infertility issues have been hard emotionally, but I feel an urgency to not let them disrupt what God has placed on my heart. My identity is not in my infertility. It is not in the what ifs and and why nots. Thank goodness.

I grew up knowing that I was adopted. My knowledge and understanding of what adoption means has grown tremendously as I’ve actively worked on my relationship with God. There has been this growing desire to adopt children and I thought it was just something I would do eventually. However, God has had another plan all along.

This past weekend, I attended a portion of the IF: Conference and I loved what Ruth Chou Simons said, “Patience is a posture of submission”. I took those words to heart, because it is what God is calling us toward.

Submission: admitting you cannot do it on your own. Your strength wavers can will not endure the trials alone. The mountains won’t move by your own will power.

We have officially entered a different season of submission. It is indeed expectant and hopeful of what God is going to do in and through this time. Some may look at it as a huge hurdle financially and I look at it as a way to truly trust and lean on God. We can’t do this alone, there is a reason people say it takes a village.

We ask for prayers as we go through the adoption agencies program, the 3 to 4 months spent in the home study process and the eagerness to be placed with a family.

We ask for prayers in our submission and what God is going to do through this time.

We have several ways that you can support us:

  • praying for us
  • by rallying the troops and spreading the word
  • by financially helping us cover the costs
  • by buying a shirt in our fundraiser
  • supporting my new boutique, Boundless Collective.

We will keep you updated on our adoption journey throughout the process.

Stay tuned for updates.

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Welcome to my little space here on the internet. This is where I share about my life story and the hope woven throughout. My journey started with me sharing my infertility story and has evolved into a creative place to share about motherhood + more. Subscribe to the blog + follow me on Instagram. I'd love to connect with you.

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  3. I highly recommend American Adoptions. That’s who we used and I was very pleased with the service. If you have questions or want to chat with someone who already went through it feel free to contact me.

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  4. I have been in your shoes and understand exactly what you are going through. All my life I always thought I’d get married to a wonderful guy and gave kids. Didnt find the right guy til I was 33 and God must have picked him. I had given up on finding the right guy and one day I prayed with God and said “ok, I put my hands in yours God and I will do whatever you want me to do”. Six months later I met my husband and we were shortly married afterwards. We are approaching our 33rd anniversary. He is the most wonderful guy! Then we struggled with infertility for 10 years. All our siblings, friends & co workers were making babies like crazy but not us! I didnt think I would ever ever ever become a mom! I cried every month when I got my period. I got where I couldnt go to friends baby showers. Again, I put my faith in God. Then after a ten year bumpy struggle with infertility we were blessed to adopt two amazing baby girls from China in ‘97 & ‘98. BEST THING WE EVER DID! Now they are 21 & 23 and are wonderful, kind and successful young ladies. My husband and I had no idea when we were younger that we’d ever adopt from a foreign country. We didnt know anyone who had ever done that. Yet looking back we can see how God lead us down a crooked path to our daughters. We cant imagine life without them! Some other adoptive Chinese moms I met had gone thru infertility too but still longed to have a biological child of their own but not me! My heart was full with our two daughters. I came to the realization that I am glad we never had biological children because if we had then we would not have pursued adoption and wouldnt have these two daughters. And I dont regret being an older parent either because if we had adopted when we were younger we would have other children we loved BUT WE WOULDNT HAVE THESE TWO DAUGHTERS that we have now. It was all part of Gods plans for my husband, me and our two daughters to become one family. I thank God every day for these blessings! God really does have plans for us!

    I will pray for you and your husband as you pursue adoption. May you both be blessed with many adoptive children.

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